If you're at all like me, you have often found yourself failing at your balancing act. You give a little to a lot, but a lot to nothing. With too many balls in the air, your tension tightens and your exhaustion deepens. There are people who depend on you and people you crave to prove wrong. You wonder if you're making a difference in the world. Is it enough? Will it ever be?
I have found a direct connection between my focus and the level of balance that I rest in.
Please do not underestimate the cruciality of consistently aligning your steps with what the Father has mapped out for you. The moment of realization that you have missed part of your ministry is heartbreaking.
There was a season for me in which the Lord immersed me in training on the idea of fixing my eyes on him. Throughout that training, which I found magnetic, I noted and read and meditated on the scripture and biblical teaching on fixing my eyes with the presumptuous misconception that this would be great stuff for a later season in life.
I imagine the Lord saying, Bless your heart.
He peeled the scales off of my eyes one particularly anxious day to my realization that this teaching was for the life I had at hand. This magnetism was for now.
My focus had shifted to another awesome opportunity. One that promised freedom and purpose. And it was good. But I had given it too much of my gaze, and I had been too stubborn and prideful to admit it at first.
As I came to acceptance that my focus had shifted away from my calling, and ultimately his purpose for me, I also realized that I had missed some crucial pockets of growth and blessing along the way.
Enter the sinking feeling.
The scary part is that I didn't totally stray away from my calling, or shy away from the church. I was just on the outside of my zone. One foot in and one foot out. Attempting to balance one good thing too many.
"...a time to keep and a time to cast away;"
Not everything that draws our eyes is evil. But not everything that draws our eyes deserves our attention.
Fix your eyes, dear precious child of God. Discern where your track is for this season of life. Run with the ministry that God has set before you. Fight for your focus.
A life out of focus is vulnerable to sidesteps and drop-offs. It is easily susceptible to becoming unbalanced. And isn't that what most of us as wives and mothers covet? Balance.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid."
Jesus came to give us rest and peace. So when we are dropping all of the balls and drowning in exhaustion, we may be out of alignment. I encourage you to pray with me today.
Lord, help me to set my priorities in line with your will right now. To move forward boldly with your purposes for me. Open my eyes to the bigger picture. Grant me the grace of discernment and direction. Let now be a turning point for me!